So I raged again! Yeah it's been awhile, but I did. I've done a couple of these but is the 1st one the blog's seen!

So it's been awhile since the last true entry but many a thing has changed in my life. The person who I was rather involved with, for the majority of my college life, and I are no longer an item due to my immaturity. I was not ready for a serious relationship and my hesitation may have lead me to have lost the best thing I've ever had or will have in life. When I think back now on all the time we spent I remember just how great a person she was. She had a great smile, with a cute little sense of humor, and personality to rival the ages. Since our demise I have faced, yet again, constant teasing from my so-called "boyz" who try to tell me that my gloomy ass facebook status updates as well as my sentiments the night of the event (12:00AM Februrary 14, 2010 and yep that's Valentine's Day) were just bullshit actings performances. As one so ever subtly put "Nigga, you think you Denzel now with that lone ass tear? Somebody please give this man an Oscar!" Well yall niggas got jokes, but there was no falsification in my actions. Those were my true feelings. And for the females giving your computer screens that "Oh no he didn't just break up with her on Valentine's Day!!" look to their computer screens slow your role. Two of things I hate to do most in life are to mislead (aka LIE) and embarrass others, so in my mind I was making the right decision. I'd feel guilty talking to other girls while I was with her, hence feeling as though I was misleading her and causing embarrassment.

You know the cartoons where the little angel sits on one shoulder and the little devil sits on the other? I think all dudes have this only the angel represents your heart and the devil represents your mind. My heart was telling me: "Yo dawg stay with this one for real. She's prolly wifey material." But my mind was like: "SON! We need to meet to world before we get serious aiight?!" I rolled with my mind on this one and thinking about it now, I may have made the right decision. I need to get all the ruthlessness out of my system before I can get serious. When I come to terms with who am I as a grown ass established profession man then I can be serious. Until then I'm just gonna be horny single college students, like the majority of most other people. I'm sure there's plenty of females who think like this too so don't talk me up the "Dog" pile just yet. When I come to terms with myself then I'll be ready, and at that time everyone's got a shot, but one in particular more than others. Till then I'll just ponder "How long can she wait?" as I go about my business, because I did care and you alone, well shared with my family, hold the left corner of my heart (because the right side is not as strong.)

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